Friendship.

     The leap from high school to college is different for everyone.  For some it may be that time where of all the hard work from high school is finally paying off.  For others it may be a period in life where they get to see what being independent is all about.  For me it seems to be a time where I realize who my true friends really are.  The people who I now know will stick by my side through thick and thin.  You know, the people in my life who brush off the small obstacles that get in our way and keep moving forward with me in this journey we call life.  I'm going to be completely honest with you and say I lost the ones who I thought were always going to be there.  As hard as it is to say that I know it's part of the big picture that God has planned for me. I am so very blessed to be surrounded by such wonderful people.  

     I have met awesome new people as well, I can only hope that they will stick around and be apart of my life for a longer period of time.  Sometimes it doesn't always work out that way, but they have already made a huge impact on my life and don't even know it.  

     I love each and every one of you who take the time out of your day to make mine a little bit better.  I can't thank you enough. 

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance, they awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom.  Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon, they stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same."

Brielle.

She has gone through such a long battle with cancer, and after reading the last blog update last night I couldn't keep in the sorrow feelings I had for the family of this amazing 13 year old girl. As a wait for more updates on the situation, I pray that God takes her back to His Heavenly Kingdom. She will be free from pain, and as a devoted follower in Christ, Brielle will feel comfort in seeing her Maker once again.

Sure I have never met this little girl, but she has changed my life. The way she lives her life everyday, only thinking about others, and being totally devoted to God at the young age of 13. Brielle is someone that I aspire to be. 

I pray that if He hasn't already Our Savior brings Brielle back to her home in the Heavenly Kingdom.  

Please keep her family in your prayers at this time. 
And if you would like to read more about her visit www.briellemurray.com

Valentine's Day.

Boy am I happy I celebrated Valentine's Day yesterday... Just got really sick at work :(

School.

     Please excuse this rant of a blog, but I am so exhausted I can't even keep my eyes open.  School has taken over my life, which isn't a bad thing. I actually enjoy it, but I want some time to sleep.
     I had my first Statistics test today and I was up all night worrying about it and now, I honestly don't know how I did.  I am hoping well, but I know I missed at least two out of twenty. UGH! This is all so frustrating.
     I guess I wish I was more focused.  I am distracted by the internet, my phone, and even the people around me. i try going in the library but there are even more people around to be distracted by.
     I don't know what to do! Perhaps a study group?

Now I am off to write an essay and then to sleep I go.

Goodnight.
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I can not tell you how much I am in love with this picture.

Grandma <3

Love.

Absolutely Beautiful.

"It's like a storm 
That cuts a path 
It's breaks your will 
It feels like that 

You think you're lost 
But you're not lost on your own 
You're not alone 

I will stand by you 
I will help you through 
When you've done all you can do 
And you can't cope 
I will dry your eyes 
I will fight your fight 
I will hold you tight 
And I won't let go 

It hurts my heart 
To see you cry 
I know it's dark 
This part of life 
Oh, it finds us all 
And we're too small 
To stop the rain 
Oh, but when it rains 

I will stand by you 
I will help you through 

When you've done all you can do 
And you can't cope 
I will dry your eyes 
I will fight your fight 
I will hold you tight 
And I won't let you fall 

Don't be afraid to fall 
I'm right here to catch you 
I won't let you down 
It won't get you down 
You're gonna make it 
Yeah, I know you can make it 


'Cause I will stand by you 
I will help you through 
When you've done all you can do 
And you can't cope 
And I will dry your eyes 
I will fight your fight 
I will hold you tight 
And I won't let go 
Oh I'm gonna hold you 
And I won't let go 
Won't let you go 
No I Won't"

Dear Seattle,

Oh you have been on my mind way too much lately. I feel like I need to visit you soon, we should plan something. I'm hoping this summer will work for you, I've been busy with school and all.  Now, more than ever, I'm in the need of a place I call home. Home is where the heart is. I believe I left my heart with you a few years ago.

Love,
Lauren

Oh you know,

Just a song that I love...

True That.

Frustrated.

I am trying to do my math homework, and let me just say Statistics is difficult and I am getting really frustrated! Study break is definitely in need. Okay this isn't exactly blog worthy but I felt like posting something :)

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Please excuse all of lyrics.

"Little girl alone on the playground
Tired of gettin' teased and gettin' pushed around
Wishin' she was invisible
To them

She ran home cryin'
"Why do they hate me?"
And Mama wiped the tears and said
"Baby, you're brave and you're beautiful.
So, hold your head high.
Don't ever let 'em define
The light in your eyes.
Love yourself, give them Hell.
You can take on this world.
You just stand and be strong
And then fight
Like a girl."

At 31 she was wheelin' and dealin'
Kept on hittin' that same glass ceilin'
She was never gonna be one of the boys, no
She coulda gave up on her ambition
And spent the rest of her life just wishin'
Instead she listened to her mama's voice sayin'

"Hold your head high.
Don't ever let 'em define
The light in your eyes.
Love yourself, give them Hell.
You can take on this world.
You just stand and be strong
And then fight
Like a girl."

Oh, with style and grace
Kick ass and take names

Ten years of climbin' that ladder
Oh, but money and power don't matter
When the doctor said "the cancer spread"
She holds on tight to her husband and babies
And says "this is just another test God gave me.
And I know just how to handle this"

I'll hold my head high
I'll never let this define
The light in my eyes
Love myself, give it Hell
I'll take on this world
If I stand and be strong
No, I'll never give up
I will conquer with love
And I'll fight like
Like a girl"

Well..

Noah and the Whale.

"Oh I'm only ever hoping
I can be there for you
Oh if Halloween and Christmas
Ever become confused
I will seperate the demons
From the gift-givers for you
Oh I'll separate the Angels 
From the Scary Witches too
To protect the bond
That I feel between our hearts
Oh because bonds can wear down
From the moment they start"



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A moment of rest.

     I have been going, going, going, these past few days so, I have decided to take a breather. Save a little time for myself, you know, listen to music, read, clean, just have "me" time. I have decided to kick off this night with a little post... I'm not sure why.
     I think "me" time is important, everyone needs a little time by themselves. 

Got me thinking.

Someone very close to me told me something today that I really hadn't thought about much. It may be because I have been blinded by the fact that they do so much for me and I just in a way, I don't like to say this but here goes nothin', took advantage of them.
"Lauren, you are never happy with anything I do for you. You always seem like something is bothering you, even when I do everything I can to please you." Wow. A blow to the heart. That definitely caught my attention. Well, I must say, they are completely right. This person does everything they can to make sure I am content, yet I have the audacity to not express my gratitude.
While at first all I could do was sink into my sorrow state, now I realize I do need to tell them "thank you" every once in a while or maybe even let them know that they mean so much to me.
From now on I am Thankful Lauren. I need to enjoy the little things in life.
Well, here's to a new thankful me.

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It....

Was good!! Sorry for the late response.

Relax :)

Now it's time to fill out job applications and watch Sleepless in Seattle. I am really excited. I, of all people, haven't seen this movie. I will let you know how it is... :D

Just Something I Stumbled Upon...

Lazy.

Today I have been so incredibly lazy, it's not even funny. I cleaned my room but that's it. Now I am tired. I don't understand how that is possible since it's only 7 and I have been awake for a total of 8 hours.... Oh well. I guess I will go organize some clothes. Bye!!

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Anyway.

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Dream.

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